GAY GENE: validation?

Scientist can't cure Cancer and other deadly diseases but time and money are used on trying to discover a gay gene. Well, here I am -- a walking, thinking, talking -- gay gene. Touch me -- I exist. I don't need scientific verification of my existance. I had a girlfriend when I was 10 years old. I know, I've posted that before, I'm not bragging, but I'm trying to make it clear that I just didn't one day decide that I am a lesbian. I was one before I knew there was a word to describe my feelings - my sexuality. Now if a heterosexual christian reads this, after receiving google alert lesbian, I have no doubt that a scowl would transform the face. And thoughts like -- aha! see messing around too young and .... Yeah, too early, but why is it considered cute if a boy & girl are boyfriend & girlfriend at ten. Anyway, yes too young since we did a bit more than kiss, but that's my past. And I'm thankful that I came through it without too much damage done. (I think it's a form of child abuse for parents to tell a child they are wrong to be homosexual. Or make it very clear that they never want a child to tell them that they are gay. And the other nasty things that parents allow to "cure" the child.) I'm so glad I understood myself at an early age and was strong enough not to give myself away. And that I didn't try to cram myself into a mold that I couldn't fit into comfortably. I know some women did and some still are. Yeah, we gays have a choice, to be true to ourselves or misshape ourselves just to be accepted by others. (I know, some didn't know there was another option because of heterosexual programming.) I live in this world and I know the stigma that goes with being gay or suspected of being gay. And I know the mentality behind the nastiness, that keeps homophobia/bigotry alive. If we're relatively happy, working, in a good relationship then that extinguishes the lie that gays are not normal. I exist - I am unique. I don't need anyone else to validate who I am.

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The other day I saw a documentary about Chris Evert, the tennis champ. Her parents didn't want her to get a divorce and her father stopped talking to her. Heterosexuals get crap from their parents too, when they don't do what the parents want them to do. I can imagine what her dad thought when Chris went to visit her friend Martina Navratilova. On that visit Chris met her next husband.

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It's very irritating to hear or read a heterosexual say gay people make the choice to be gay. Just because some heterosexuals fall in love or lust with someone of the same gender and make the choice to enter a physical relationship with someone who is gay is not necessarily a gay person. And there should be nothing wrong with adults making that decision. Just because some homosexuals are influenced to not accept their sexuality doesn't mean they are not gay. People are sexual beings. We can't really control who we have feelings for. But we should be able to share ourselves with another adult without it being thought of as wrong to the point of denying equal rights. Now if a "gay gene" was found, would the government then make it universal law that homosexuals should be treated the same as heterosexuals and provided the same legal rights? How about the scientist, the government, and others PROVE I'm not gay.

A HEAVY WEIGHT

I read another post by the lesbian mom/wife who she feels like she might have let the gay community down. (Mrs Etheridge you didn't let me down.)When I first heard her speaking about how her hetero-family members treats her and her wife and children, and that she loves them -- well, I thought some people wouldn't understand what she was saying. I understand and some of us who haven't lost our families over our gayness will understand. Some may take what she said in a negative way. But the main point is, we should all be able to express how we feel -- say that we love our blood family and our lovers without it being thought of as a bad thing. We love our family members and friends who voted against us having the same equal rights that they do. I don't hate anyone. I grew up in a community that is church oriented. And for hetero-people who don't go to church they follow what is considered normal. I will not go into the ones who abuse their minds and bodies with drugs and alcohol and have children that they don't take care of -- but think they are better than I am simply because they are heterosexual. Does that seem like I'm angry? I'm not angry -- I have just observed how people in this world view things. There is a lot of hypocrisy. Yesterday, I saw a video where an elderly Black man said that two men sleeping together is not about civil rights -- that Black civil rights was about dignity and freedom. So his dignity and freedom is different from my dignity and freedom -- in his mind. (He has the right (now) to marry any woman that wants to marry him. He isn't thinking about the time when Blacks could have their children taken from them. There are probably some people that read SPT and don't agree with all that I write. But it's my blog, my opinions and I, at the moment, have freedom of speech. Well, except for when I stand on my porch and a cop doesn't like what I say and tells me that he can arrest me -- but that's a whole other blog topic--Black civil rights in America. Oh yeah, had to think for a minute, I got a step off track (but not much). How do we reach the masses to let them know our point of view? We do blogs. We speak publicly. We do YouTube. But how many hetero-people read our blogs, listen to our public speeches or look at YouTube that has videos about our issues? It is the celebrities who get the public platform that can reach the masses. And that is a lot of weight to carry. Comedienne Wanda takes the mike at a rally, says she's gay and it's written up in a newspaper. Singer Melissa writes that she will not pay state taxes (HA! letting off steam), and it's news. And she gets to go on Oprah that is not only nation wide but world wide. Actress Whoopie speaks to support her gay friends and she gets the cameras. There are many who speak out about inequality but we mainly speak to our own who are going through the same things. And so many heterosexuals, not directly affected by our issues, don't care enough to listen -- to get our side. And I think that is the worst attitude that anyone can have -- to not care enough to listen. Heteros who oppose same-gender marriage need to ask themselves why they object to equality for all adults. Why are they voting against something that will not alter their lives? Why do they feel threatened by same gender couples getting married? Where is the research on that? I know the psychology behind the narrow-mindedness. I am more free than a lot of those who have equality but are oppressed because they fear their God. I don't fear my God. I have nothing but love and hope in my heart for my fellow sisters and brothers all over this world. Once love totally fills you, you fear no one -- not the people who deny equality or the man with the badge on his chest and a gun on his hip standing at your door. It is a heavy weight to speak for so many who can't speak for themselves. When love fills you -- you have the true GOD on your side. PEACE.

WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL

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I read a blog by a celebs wife. She wrote a poem that says she doesn't want to be a super hero. She doesn't want to speak for the masses. And why should she have to. There are plenty of people who want to speak publicly but are not given the mike and tv camera. I know first hand how that works. When I tried to have a civil rights rally in my home town, the white media would not announce it or bring a mobile unit. Something was wrong with the mobile unit, so I was told by two different news stations. I was asked if a minister was involved. What, I am not qualified to speak? I have to wear a collar or have someone speak for me? When I tried to get a public park for the rally, I was told no but that it could be held in a church. And it's the same with the gay rights issue. I've seen very little news coverage about Prop 8. Last week, two or three women on tv had a discussion about the legalization of prostitution but where is the discussion about Prop 8 that denies American citizens our legal rights. Yes, once again I compare the gay issue to the Black issue -- inequality. The truth is not suppose to be told publicly -- so the ones with the power -- who owns the media -- controls how much information is given to the public -- to the country.

Why is it that American citizens have to take to the streets and demand equality and our federal officials sit back and do not respond. Our federal officials do nothing to protect the rights of America citizens. Are the American soldiers who are at war on foreign soil fighting to protect America for heterosexuals? There are gays in the American military who are putting their lives on the line for an America who do not think they should have equality. Gay American soldiers know about what is going on here. The ones who make it back to us alive will not have the right to legally marry who they love. Why does American history keep repeating itself? Black American soldiers fought under the American flag but came home to find that they had very few legal rights. Black soldiers came home and could not sit in a White restaurant and have a cup of coffee. And here we go again -- denying Americans equal rights. It's time to end this -- EQUALITY NOW -- before our gay heroes make it home only to find that their country still do not give them the same rights as the heterosexuals they fought beside -- the same rights as the heterosexuals they fought to protect.

RACHEL MADDOW

Rachel Maddow, 35-year-old Rhodes scholar, on MSNBC nightly, is an Out 100 honoree. "I am not, like, Anchor Babe, and I'm never gonna be," she said in an interview.

I saw Rachel on tv last night and stared at her and ignored Mom who was talking. She's always talking. Rachel, you can characterize yourself any way that you want to, but you don't look like a man to me. Intelligence, humor and
beauty - WHEW! - what a combination. As I was mesmerized by her smile, I refrained from saying she is
gay. Mom thinks I know everybody who is gay. OUT 100 Honorees

NOT LESBIANS

X This morning, a google alert was about a woman who is fighting to keep her daughter away from her ex-partner who is a lesbian. The birth mother has been in a mental hospital and her mother was also. And now this woman is trying to claim that her daughter has said she wanted to kill herself after visiting with the lesbian parent. It seems to me that the daughter has inherited a mental thing from her mother and grandmother. But the woman (who never was a lesbian) is using that as a way to keep the lesbian from seeing the girl. This woman lived with a lesbian but would only have sex once or twice a year and didn't like it. So the lesbian must have been with her for more than sex. And when the lesbian had enough and told her to leave, she wouldn't. And now the lesbian will not talk to her on the phone or when she picks up the daughter. This case alone demonstrates why gays should be allowed to legally marry. Then there would be no issue of the birth mother later claiming that the other mother has no parental rights.

X Now that a certain young actress has reportedly said that she is not a lesbian, maybe people will stop writing about her being one. AND soon my E-box will not contain google alerts with stories about her. I want blogs and news about real lesbians.

OBAMA - WHILE I STILL CAN

OBAMA. He looks like a President to me. He looks like the future. As I've stated before, I'm not much into politics. In the past I voted because people died for me to have the right to be counted. They still are not doing it right, but for now, we have to go with it as is, until a new generation changes how it is done. A politician makes promises "I can get it done." Yeah, right. I take that to mean, I will try to get it done. I realize that the President has power, however he is still only one man. So we need to not only vote for change but make sure to also vote for people who will assist him in trying to change things. It's encouraging to hear that so many people are looking past his skin-tone and seeing him as an American, as a man who is intelligent, and as a man who can be the President of our nation. I fear for the man's life because some have not advanced pass bigotry and outright nastiness. But if he and his family will take the risk, then I will do my part. While I still have the right to -- I will vote.

LESBIANS OUT LOUD (LOL)

To lesbians only. If you haven't heard of this site yet, but looking for a place to hangout with other women, you should check out Lesbians Out Loud. I corresponded with the site administrator today and asked permission to link, which she gave me. She followed by saying:

What I can tell you is that currently it is a small group of women. The women who do post have been members for years. They are loyal and warm, accepting and kind, supportive and genuinely good people. Our membership is quite diverse, trans, bi, lesbian (of course), young and old, kinky and vanilla, white collar, blue collar and everywhere inbetween. One of the things that I love most about the site is that it is a safe place to be yourself. That is the main reason that I started the website. I've been a member of many over the years but I never quite fit in. Here I do, not because it is my site but because everyone accepts each other where they are.

Click the URL to go directly to the forum.
www.lesbiansoutloud.net/phpbb3

GLSEN and AD COUNCIL CAMPAIGN

Hi READERS. Google Alert puts a lot of stuff in my e-box that I have no interest in, but I do get stuff that I may not have found on my own. At the sidebar is a video screen that has 3 THAT'S SO GAY videos. Check it out.

GLSEN and Ad Council Launch First Campaign to Address Anti-Gay Language Among Teens -- to learn more click
http://www.prnewswire.com/mnr/adcouncil/34660/

FELLOW BLOGGERS, if you want to put the ad on your blog, the embed code can be found at the URL address above.

WELCOME TO SPT READERS

Hi Readers. I only joined the net in late 2007. If I had any idea that there was so much gay activity here, I would have did it way before. I started this blog just to post my poetry and stories. I had no intention of actually writing anything more personal. At the end of some poems I put notes to give a little more of my thoughts. However, I've included some additional post about things on my mind, stemming from what I've read on the net. And even a bit about what's happening in my life. Once or twice, I've addressed SPT Readers as Ladies. I'm not going back in to remove it, because it was my mind-set at the time. I was thinking that only women who loved women would read SPT. But I've since learned that not only lesbians go to lesbian sites. So right here, I say to all who visit SPT with an open mind