PLEASE

tame the beast within me

or cut the leash

and set this unhappy child free

i can't bow to you

i've been on my knees before her

turn me loose

or send me the golden chariot

i am ready

believing was essential

started with so much potential

now it's bottomed out

became inconsequential

i couldn't wait anymore

i crashed -- burned -- rolled on the floor

so much power -- so much heat

the scent intoxicating

the kiss sweet

i won't go back to being alone

drop me

or raise me to your throne

release me give me peace

please.

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NOTE: I was baptized young, went to Church and believed. Everything was fine with me until I was a teenager. I wasn't interested in boys romantically, but when I started thinking about my future, I didn't see a man or children in it. I wanted to be like everybody else, and prayed. God answers prayers, we are taught, so I waited and no 'change' came. So I accepted that I was alright or He would have changed me.