Fear Squeezes

She ask -- what's wrong?
Why are you crying?
Nothing you say
But she knows you are lying.

Why do you stay in your room?
You're too much alone -- you need
Some sun -- some friends -- some fun.
How can you ever tell her -- ever say
Mom, I'm ....

You've heard them laugh, joke and scoff
The ones whose opinions matter.
If they knew your secret -- your world would shatter.
So you crookedly smile as your teeth grind
While you die a little more inside.

With the shades down and the radio blasting
Try to shut out the fear and the unanswered questions.
As you go through another day, month, year
Of silent screaming and fasting.
When you go into the light
Forget about the dream in the night.
Keep your eyes moving -- don't look too long
Watchful eyes might figure out what's wrong.

Fear squeezes your heart
You have no one -- yet love songs rip you apart.
Each second, minute, hour -- makes you older
Feeling the unmentionable -- makes you colder.
You're thinking -- not much longer
Your fear is sinking -- as you grow stronger.

The world you must explore.
Let down your hair
Step through the open door.
If they truely care
They will still be there
And let you in when you return.