Shake It Off

this morning melissa etheridge was on at 9am where she was interviewed and performed some past hits and a couple of songs from her new album "fearless love" - the lyrics to that song "the wanting of you"got to me a little teeny bit - sometimes i think about - don't want to think about - but i do sometimes think about - that song made me think about - a woman - that married a man - had his children and - and i sometimes wonder - does she - ever - think of her past - does she ever think about those days - those nights of her and - me - i can't write music - i can't play my guitar well - but i can write about it and sing in my head - the sometimes pain in my heart - comes thumping back - deep breath - silent sigh - it's okay to think of the past - it's okay to remember - it's okay to shed a tear - it still stings sometimes - but i didn't die - it just means - for me - it was real - don't think too deeply about it - just feel - when i'm asked - if i've ever been in love - i shake my head and mumble - no - part of me loved each and every one - but there is always that extra special - sweet one - who just ended up being a name i can't say out loud - or write down - i was her secret darling - but it's okay - she had her reason for walking away - i wasn't the reason that made her go - although - some would say the reason was me - i wasn't a man you see - okay i shook that off - reading post at lesbian sites - also make me pause - because many are by - women - who are married to men - but wants to be with a - woman - most women I know are - married - to men and every once in a while - i get a look - you can imagine that look - a look that i ignore - i'm way past being a woman's after dark delight - how hard will it hit - if one day i go to a site - just to browse - and see her pic and profile - any of their pics and profiles - that say - lesbian - single - divorced - children - just looking - thump - deep breath - silent sigh - shake it off