Nice to meet you! So, if you don't mind me asking....are you feeling depressed because you are a lesbian but married to a man? I have been there, and I am still married but I now choose to leave him after being in the marriage for 8 years and not to forget, we both share a son who is 6 years old. I still haven't come out to my family, well my sister knows and some of my close friends. I have a tough road ahead of me, with the divorce and coming out...but ya know what? if I don't do this for myself, I will continue to be derpessed, I need to do what I feel is right. I realized, all these years it has been that fear that kept me in this cage. I need to overcome that fear and finally live for me, finally be free. Yes, I do admit it will be hard......VERY hard, considering all the circumstances especially, coming out to my family (they are so close minded, very religious and cultural) but I can't live for them anymore, I can't continue making THEM happy, because who will make me happy? My husband? Well, ya he is an awesome perosn, a great, great man and a great father but if I am not IN love with him because I know I am a lesbian, then it is not fair for me and it is not fair for him. No matter how great of a guy he is, he can never make me happy, he can never make me 'straight' so in this situation, time will NOT heal...time will NOT make me straight. I need to leave him as soon as I can. ........(c) bneyes2009
========NOTE: Thank you bneyes for allowing me to publish part of your life's journey. There are many women who are in situations such as yours and I hope this post helps them to feel not so alone. --Salty
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