COME ON IN TO ME

I don't know about anyone else, but for me, it's a rare thing to have someone I like to like me back and go with their feelings. Way too many times, a woman will like me but will not give us a chance because of what people might say. Or will be with me but only in secret. Well, I don't want to be a little secret anymore. I want a lover who will come on in to me -- openly.

There are too many women alone. Going out to eat or to a movie does not have to end with the big scary word -- sex. I would like the company of a woman who is not related to me. Due to the internet, I've met several women online and it is really terrific to correspond with women that I can say - hi babe - to and not be made to feel like I'm out of line. Just today, I was talking to a woman and I said - thanks baby - and her reply contained a - honey - but I could instantly tell that she hesitated just that little bit. She is a neighbor and I think of her as a friend. I say babe or baby to females and males, it's just the way I talk sometimes. And women say honey and dear to each other but some hesitate when saying it to me. It's tiring having to always be on guard and careful about how close I stand to someone or what I say because I don't want a misunderstanding. One day, I accidentally kissed a woman on the lips (don't laugh - it was an accident). We intended to kiss each other's cheek. She was old enough to be my mother (as if that matters), and we had not seen each other in a long time. There were other people in the room and there was a gasp. Damn. What is the world coming to when people can't show affection?

There are more and more women coming out, but not in my town. At least when I browse a dating site, there are only 2 or 3 from here. And why the heck don't women over 39 post on message boards? I'm in the middle of reading a web-story and after reading the character say she wanted to be in a relationship, and tired of women who fooled around (different f-word), I decided to finish this draft and post it. I have nothing against women f-ing around, just want one doing me only. Hey, even via computer is better than nothing and from personal experience, an on-line romance can be intense and hot.