I Went To A Funeral Today

I went to a funeral today. My eyes are still swollen. Family came in from out of town and it was so good to see them. What a shame that it takes a death in the family these days to get most of us together. I sat on the front row and looked at Cuz laying in the casket and he looked so peaceful. His earthly life had ended and his many family and friends were there to see him off. A cousin who lives here in town told me today that she loves me. My family are huggers and we are close no matter what the petty arguments and distance in miles.

My minister cuz gave the eulogy. As he was speaking, I was trying to decide if I would walk out if he said something about homosexuals and looked at me. Of course I would not, because I'm pass caring about what others think or say about me. Well, he did say something about homosexuals but he didn't look at me. What was surprising was his changed attitude. Mom have told me that on some Sunday's he would say something about homosexuals that was negative. The surprising thing was, today, he said he was not the Creator and he didn't get to decide who would go to Heaven or hell. He said something to the effect that if he got to Heaven he might see some homosexuals (and other so-called-sinners) there. He said maybe God had a plan for the so-called-sinners. This is not word-for-word but I hope you are getting the idea what a change this is. Maybe seeing me sitting there front row and singing hymns finally made him realize that he did not believe in God more than I did. Maybe he finally heard God tell him that before today, he had been preaching the wrong message. Preachers really called by God should be giving the message that God is love and that man can't judge people's so-called sins. He told of his past and he has come a long way since then. (God didn't turn against him so why would God turn against his other children who according to man were sinners.) My cuz who passed didn't go to church every Sunday but he believed in God. If anyone here on earth disapproved of something he might have did, they will not get to judge whether or not he enters into Heaven. People need to clean their own house. As I sang words to songs I have not sang in a long time, since leaving the church (not God), my soul was not troubled. I have no problem with God and I know He has no problem with me.